Now she's got a boyfriend and i've got a rockband...

I miss band practice - truly being a part of music, creating it, making it my own. Dug out some old lyrics: Solar Powered Happiness right?

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My name's bittersweet on your lips
Lingering there from the departing kiss
Photos and memories are left of the past
How were we to know this wouldn't last?

As my heart sinks down in my chest
I know this is for the best
But what i've done is oh so wrong...

Did you expect a hollywood ending,
To find a princess worth defending?
I'm no fairytale, try a nightmare,
In jet black jeans with midnight hair.
We stepped into every pit fall
I knew this would be our downfall.

I can only say sorry so many times
Before we get tired of the same old lines,
You lost your temper so i shut you out
Why keep trying when all we do is shout?

As my heart sinks down in my chest
Please don't think i jest
Cause what i've done is oh so wrong...

Did you expect a hollywood ending,
To find a princess worth defending?
I'm no fairytale, try a nightmare,
In jet black jeans with midnight hair.
We stepped into every pit fall
I knew this would be our downfall.

Thanks for the inspiration
For a final song to say goodbye
And when i said forever
I never meant it to be a lie..

Did you expect a hollywood ending,
To find a princess worth defending?
I'm no fairytale, try a nightmare,
In jet black jeans with midnight hair.
We stepped into every pit fall
I knew this would be our downfall.
I knew this would be our downfall...


Not perfect; but i think these are some of the best words i've written. (:

The longer that i live with this idea, the more i sink in...

I've thrown up every defence mechanism i have within in the last 48 hours because of some of the stuff that has been said - i can't get them down.

It's like my minds thrown up a bubble; i can see and feel everything but its like numbed a bit.

Everythings filtering through slower than normal, but it doesn't stop that irrational part of my brain going: 'They were right, you're not wanted for anything other than physical gratification.'

 

*Self Destruct Button Needed*

Tonight you'll cry yourself to sleep...

In sleep we cannot lie - our dreams our the total of our subconcious and all that we have seen.
I sleep talk - i tell nothing but the truth.

But right now, i miss having someone real and tangible here; i miss 'cuddles'. Not hugs, not sex, not foreplay, proper cuddles.

But everyone i know is taken, or seeing someone.  I wish someone could be there for me like i've always been there for them.

I guess Charmander and Yoshi will have to do for now...