I'm a born performer; there's nothing i enjoy more than making people's worries go away, even briefly, anyway i can. It's never been a competitive things though, i do it because i enjoy it. I will deny i can sing, because it's where i feel i'm weakest and it's my least favourite part of performing, yet i found myself after 10 minutes practice on stage with three best friends about to sing the opening lines of Don't Stop Believing in front of an audience of about 100 - all people i was at school at. I have not felt nerves like that since i did my scripted public performance last year (i didn't know the words - fair reason to be nervous). But then inspiration hit. For a short while i've been talking a lot with a friend, and during the conversations that bounce around erratically from facepalming to me being a burglar, we discussed music, our musical talents and such. He himself is INCREDIBLY talented (he'll deny it aswell - so irritating!) As per usual i told him i couldn't sing but his reply was 'You're an incredibly modest person, so i bet you can'. And that conversation came to mind when i was standing before the microphone, that maybe, i should just embrace what i can do and go for it. A flash of inspiration. And i belted that first line as if i'd been doing it all my life, maybe not pitch perfect, and i felt my voice wobble on the longer notes but i did it...
I'm not sure how i would've coped without that moment. Sure i've sung in public before, at various people's birthdays, but ALWAYS after a couple (five or six) of drinks, or in a completely ridiculous costume so no one's really paying attention. But i think these is one of those moments that will genuinely change something - i'm not perfect so i'm gonna get help and maybe one day i'll have the balls to do Defying Gravity in front of people!
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